It has been 8 years without listening “M” because I have refused to hear his voice since then. Today, I suddenly felt myself ready to listen again. I picked “the song” which was the most traumatic choice so the worst start for me. I guess I really wanted to face how listening that song made me feel after all those years. However, It was not as bad as I feared. What came to my mind was not my young years instead I discovered different meanings within the song. I felt neither sad nor angry. I just better understood underlying messages of the lyrics. The melody didn’t sound special like it used to. I was relieved at that moment. Then, I continued with other songs I love. It was not easy to get over all of them and their memories at one day. At least, I took a step. The only bad result of this attempt was that it triggered my desire for listening other artists’ songs I avoided listening to. Those unfortunately hurt my deep wounds. It is going to be huge challenge for myself. I have to be ready for that.